Tuesday's in Other Words Meme
This week's writing prompt is:
"....the brick walls are there to stop the people who don't want it badly enough. They are there to stop the other people.....Brick walls are there for a reason. They give us a chance to show how badly we want something."
- by Dr. Randy Pausch
The big brick wall in my life would be financial problems. My husband and I created a mountain of debt and we're a one income family while I homeschool the kids. These are choices that we made, but the consequences of said choices makes for one great big wall that I find myself dealing with on a daily basis. Every day, I have to make frugal decisions and figure out how to pay the overdue bills.
Our goal is to get over this wall, so that we can be freed up to serve God better. My husband and I feel like we are being tugged towards adoption and full time ministry. However, for now, this big wall of debt keeps us from pursuing those things. I don't see any positive changes happening; that's where faith comes in. God is amazing. He could change it all in the next few weeks. Or, He could stretch it out for 20 more years. I don't understand His reasoning, but He knows what He is doing.
Having this brick wall shows me how bad I want to be on the other side of it. I probably desire things like adoption and full time ministry, because there is no possible way to have it right now. I think that it is normal for people not to realize blessings when they are so easily available. It's the things that we wait and hope for that we really appreciate.
It's a good thing that I didn't write this last night, because I wasn't very hopeful. I cried out to Jesus and listened to uplifting songs which reminded me of how He is strengthening me to get through this difficulty. Today I'm much, much better. I have renewed strength and I'm willing to keep pressing on until I get past this brick wall, even if it takes longer than I could possibly imagine. Perseverance isn't easy, but it's a requirement when you're wanting to live in the will of God.
Maisie